Just a Day in the Life of a Mom with Twins

This week has been hard in many ways but the thing that hurts the most is that I lost a friend. Sharon was a woman I went to church with. We shared a birthday (March 25th). She was fun and bubbly. She was a believer. She died on Monday night.  I got a call from our Pastor on Tuesday afternoon telling me Sharon had passed away. She had had some kind of infection and was later believed to have had a heart attack. I was shocked, stunned. She was only 36 years old. My husband is 34, I cannot imagine living life without him and my heart is completely shattered for Sharon's husband. I know the Lord provides strength and comfort during these times but it is still an awful and terrible thing to go through. It always leads to more questions than answers; what happened? How did it happen? WHY did it happen? I don't know why certain things happen. I don't know why the Lord decides to call some people home early. And I don't know why He decided to take my friend on Monday night...

Lately I've been feeling really worried about a procedure I have coming up. In January it seemed like such a far off thing but now as the days tick by I'm getting so nervous. I have feelings of doubt and fear; what if this doesn't work? How are we going to pay for all this? What if things go wrong? What if I die? All extremely scary stuff. But then I remember that people go through this all the time, every day. I'm going to be ok no matter the outcome because my trust is in God and not the doctors.  Psalm 37:5 Commit everything you do to the Lord; trust Him and He will help you. Psalm 56:3 - 4 Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God I will praise His word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do unto me.  Psalm 56:9 - 13 When I cry out to You, then my enemies will turn back; this I know, because God is for me. In God I will praise His Word, in the Lord I will praise His word, in God I have put my trust; I will not be afraid. What...

I think it is sometimes easy for us to forget that vengeance and revenge is of the Lord. We should not seek it out. This past week I went to see one of my favorite musicals, Sweeney Todd. If you haven't seen or heard of it, it is about a man seeking revenge on the ones who destroyed his world. While he does get them back, the story also ends tragically for Mr. Sweeney Todd.  I t is a great reminder that revenge doesn't always work out in your favor and it's best left up to the Lord. Let's remember to let the Lord deal with our enemies.  Deuteronomy 32:25, 42 To me belongeth vengeance and recompence; their foot shall slide in due time: for the day of their calamity is at hand, and the things that shall come upon them make haste. I will make mine arrows drunk with blood and my sword shall devour flesh, and that with the blood of the slain and of the captives, from the beginning of revengers upon the enemy. Proverbs 20:22 Say not thou, I will recompense evil but wait...

I thought it might be fun to do a small series about what my God is. This post will just be verses about how God answers prayers and for us to use as a great reminder. Feel free to comment below which verses have helped you remember that God answers your prayers (maybe not always in the way you were asking) or a story about how He has answered. Psalm 86: 6 - 7 Give ear, O Lord, unto my prayer and attend to the voice of my supplications. I will call upon thee for thou wilt answer me. Psalm 116:1 - 2 I love the Lord because he ahth heard my voice and my supplications. Because he hath inclined his ear unto me, therefore I will call upon him as long as I live. Psalm 138:3 In the day when I cried thou answered me, and strengthened me with strength in my soul. Jeremiah 33:3 Call unto me and I will answer thee, and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not. 1 Peter 3:12 For the eyes of the Lord are over the righteous and his ears are open unto their prayers ...

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This past week my mother and I started at Ladies Bible Study again and we're continuing to go through our book called What Do I Know About My God? by Mardi Collier. We started this book back in the fall of 2016 and are slowly making our way through it and I couldn't be more thankful. Between the first meeting until now I received some pretty disheartening news about my health and I went through all the emotions you could possibly think of. From being sad and having a pity party for myself to being angry and really frustrated with God. It took me a couple of months and a lot of patience from the Lord, but I finally understand why he has chosen me to walk this path of life. I'm not going to give too much detail here now because I have a new blog series going up in the future about all of it, my medical condition, the medications and procedures and how God has used me during all of it but I wanted to share this first; even though I doubted everything and was in a very dark pl...