This year has been such a rollercoaster for Eric and me. Some good, some bad, a lot of happy times but a lot of sad times as well. I know that I say “Eric and I have been through so much this year” and it’s true we have. I’m sure some people are sick of hearing that exact line and are wondering well what exactly have we been through? Well I’m not comfortable telling our story just yet. Maybe one day when it’s all said and in past will I fully explain everything we’ve been through together as a couple but today is not that day. #sorrynotsorry
With the year being as crazy
as it was I’ve gained a lot of weight because of it, 40lbs to be exact. I saw
myself get heavier and heavier and I was working out, I bought a Fitbit so I
could challenge myself daily to get the steps I needed, but my biggest enemy is
food. I love food. I love Chicken. Everything Chicken. Because of this and
because of the emotional state I’ve been in I’ve over indulged. This isn’t easy
for me to talk about. I know how light I was in my early 20s and when I put on
5-10lbs I said oh it’s not that bad, not a big difference. It wasn’t until I
step on the scale and it read a number I’ve never seen before. Surely I can’t
be that heavy! Sure, I have a gut. I’ve always had a big tummy. I’m built like
a box. WIDE. Square. But seeing that number on the scale, and starting to look
through pictures….really tore me down. This isn’t me. This isn’t who I want to
be!
NO MORE EXCUSES!
So, it’s a new year and a new
me (so cliché). I’m tired of looking in the mirror and WISHING I was skinner. I’m
tired of not being happy with myself. I’m tired of knowing who I could be…
I’ve decided to go on a diet
with my mom. We’re kicking meat out of our meal plans for one month. It’s going
to be extremely hard (did I mention I love chicken?). I know I’m going to fail
at times, but when I do I’m not going to beat myself up because that’s how I
got into this mess to begin with. I want to break myself down, teaching my
brain and body that I don’t need all the junk out there. I don’t need fast
food, I don’t need good food quickly. I need to be more mindful of what is
going in my mouth. I don’t need all that mayo and dressing etc. Is it
delicious? YES!!! Will I miss it? OF COURSE! But I don’t need it and it’s not
good for you!
I look to my brother in
situations like these. He stopped eating fast food quite a while ago now, and
he has no desire to eat it any more. The thought of it can make him sick,
thinking about all the grease and everything else they put into your food….Scary.
I want to give my body a break of all this stuff and retrain it to like the
simple things. Fruits, Vegetables, Beans, stuff that isn’t so processed and
preserved! I don’t plan on giving up meat completely and forever. I just want
some time for my body to freak out and then get used to the good things in life
again. I’m glad my mom is coming with me on this journey because there’s no way
I can do it on my own. Luckily I have my husband by my side too. He’s going to
be dragging me to the gym even when I don’t want to – no more Mr. Nice Guy.
I’m excited for this new me.
I know it’s going to be a long road. 40lbs didn’t come in one night and it’s
not going to fall off like that either, I know that.
But I gotta get this body
back in shape to make babies ;)
So come with me! Follow me
and cheer me on as I go Vegetarian for one month starting January 1st.
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