I Cheated

I have to admit it, I am a Cheater.

I cheated on my diet yesterday. Eric and I went on a double date night with my parents to Red Robin for dinner last night and I had the Bruchetta Chicken Sandwich. And It Was DELICIOUS. I ate that thing so fast I beat my dad (not an easy feat). 

I had had a terrible bad day and I was in such a cranky mood that in a moment of weakness I went back to my old ways. While I only made it 22 days totally meat free I did notice a new pattern. I am eating less. I didn't have any of my fries at dinner last night, just the sandwich and was completely stuffed. I actually shouldn't have eaten the whole sandwich - I would have been just fine. 

So while I did fail in one area I did accomplish one thing, start eating less. The reason I've gained so much weight is because #1 I love food. I love the way it taste, it makes me feel good (spoken like a true fat kid). #2 I'm lazy. Having Asthma doesn't help. I get winded easily so I never feel like doing anything after I eat, or any time really. Walk up the stairs? No thanks, I'll just take a nap in my bed. Go to the gym? No thanks, I'll stay right here and watch tv. Those two combinations are exactly why I weigh as much as I do. Being a "vegetarian" has slowed my eating down. I don't enjoy veggie sandwiches as much as I do chicken so I slow down my eating giving my stomach time to tell my brain "okay, I'm full now." And I'm making Eric make me go to the gym. We go three times a week, soon to be four. 

I've lost one pound every week this year so far so I'm down four pounds! It doesn't seem like much but adding that with the gym I can also tell I'm stronger. When I first started going to the gym with Eric I was lifting 55 lbs on the machines. Now I'm at 65! That's been encouraging to me even though I haven't seen a difference on my body yet. I'm slowly turning this fat into muscle and I'm excited about it.