Wow. This past week has been crazy. We finally told the
world that we’re expecting our babies this coming spring and I’ve receiving
nothing but congratulations all week long. I strategically planned out our announcement
as I’m not one for personal attention. I tend to shy away and knew I would need
a week of a few “congratulations” and hugs here and there before I really
started to see people and be overwhelmed by hugs and questions, etc. The internet
is different, I have time to respond and think about how I’m going to answer
certain questions but when you’re face to face with someone you don’t have a
lot of time to think and it at times can make me anxious. Any way the cat is
out of the bag and everyone knows now and I’m excited to be sharing my journey
now publicly. I love posting pictures and writing updates. Even if people
weren’t interested in our story I think it’s a nice keepsake to look back on
and remember the journey it took to get to this point and the enjoyment of
pregnancy.
You might be thinking “enjoyment? Hasn’t
she been miserable this entire pregnancy so far?” You would be partially
correct. These past 3 months have not been easy. I’ve been sick since week 5
and not just nauseous, but sick-sick all day and all night long. I have insomnia,
I’m bloated all the time and the fact that I have a cyst on the bottom of my
foot making the simple motion of walking incredibly painful, I truly am
enjoying this pregnancy. Most people don’t realize (not that we told anyone…)
that we’ve been trying to get pregnant for a while now and it just wasn’t
happening. One day I’ll tell my story on here but today is not the day. But the
fact that I’m pregnant at all is a miracle in itself and the fact that it’s
twins is beyond amazing! I will enjoy every bump and bruise along the way
because I know what it took to get to this spot and I will never take any of it
for granted.
Let me just plug this in here – we’ve been trying to
conceive for a long time, and all the while we had people asking “when are you
going to have a baby?” Like it was my choice... If it were up to me I’d already
have one by now. That question hurt each and every time it was asked because
all I could do is go, "yeah God…When are we going to have a baby?" So next time
you want to ask a couple when they’re planning on having kids, don’t. Just don’t
go there. You don’t know the back story. You don’t know if they’ve been trying.
Oh and don’t say “In a couple years you’re going to have kids” because
you don’t know my underlying health conditions and you don’t know if that’s
even possible for me. Sorry Not Sorry. It’s October, known as Pregnancy and
Infant Loss Awareness month, and I really get passionate about the subject of
infertility and other people prying around in this area. Please be kind. 1 in 4
women will suffer a miscarriage or infant loss…that number is staggering and
there’s no way to tell who that person is. Just be careful out
there friends, with other people’s feelings.
I’m beyond grateful to be where I
am. Yes it was a long road to get here and I’m sorry (but not really) if my
social media will be blowing up with baby bumps, pregnancy updates and all the
like, but I’m super happy to be where I am. I never thought I would be here so I
want to talk about it! I’ll be posting, maybe one a day, all the blog posts I’ve
been saving starting of when we very first found out we were pregnant. Hope you
join me for the ride!
Piontkowski Twins!!
Thank you for the story. I am one of those women that lost a baby. Intact I lost 2. I know I'll see them I heaven some day. But enough about that, sorry if I was one of the pryers. Know that Mr. Kochan and I are over the moon for you and Erik.
ReplyDeleteIt's impossible to know who has lost children just by looking at someone. Breaks my heart to know there are so many out there and others who can be insensitive to the fact.
DeleteThanks for the congratulations, the girls are growing so big. It's fun to watch them tackle each new milestone.